Friday, June 6, 2008
- 5 JUNE 2008 -
today went to school around 8.10am and was late for geography lesson ! :x
i was so obedient , went to all the lesson and did not attend late ~ dont know why went emo during social studies lesson and started to vent anger on people !
suddenly i think of the past , and automatically , started to write a letter to BABY ~
i sort out all my feelings that i have and hope he can accept what i wrote in the letter ..
i really feel very stress up ! just dont know why i suddenly feel so frustrated in everything !
somemore headache ! hais ~
went to art this afternoon and started to draw my canvas without showing teacher my final design ! o0ps , hahas ;D
the more i draw , the more i feel so sleepy and lazy , hahas . actually should start around 2pm , but i slack here and there and started to draw my canvas at 3pm !
spent lots of time in the MODEL figure , hais !
i already very fedup le , then heard someone say LES overboard to help SOMEONE ! and i was so unhappy , i went in the classroom and scolded him !
PEEPS ! if you was in my stand , you would get angry alrights ? can you imagine ? this is your 'O' levels examinations , then you keep on ask an expert to help you draw and you just merely sitting over there talking on the phone ?! oh my ~
if you've no ability , dont take art can ? please be more honest and show out your talents ! i HATE people who cheat lorhs ! especially to the person like you !!! think yourself is so pretty ? act kind ? to me , your are just like an ARROGANT and hopeless ARTIST ! too underestimated people around you and i believe you would not become famous ONE DAY !
after that mad matter , i started to cool down , but , unfortunately , another came to PROVOKE me again !
ERGH !!! %^%*^*(^*^*&^%@^%#^&*
cant you all pity me ? i was having a headache and you all keep provoke me !!!
please la ! i hate people who touch my ART and DRAWINGS ! and i DOT need your help to improve my skills ! stop acting like one expert can ?!! after your touch up , there isn't any difference ! LMAO ! underestimated me ? if i really buke up and went to study about ARTS , my result is much more beter than you alrights ?! even now , i didnt even have any tuition or special learning course , i can draw til this kind of standard already ! so i DONT need any of your COMMENTS and you have NO RIGHTS to comment !! stop acting one friendly because no one finds it good but DISGUSTING ! so please just fcuk off from my place and route ! ~
after this stupid matter , i went home together with 爱人, 爱爱 and cindy :)
they went to buy food to eat and i went home as i want to continue my drawings on the canvas ~
reach home , surprisingly , saw mother on the sofa watching tv ~ i was like : HARH ..
cause BABY coming over to find me , but my mum dont like , so i ask her :
ma , you never work mehs ? you what time going out ?
she replied : have , later la ! why lehs ?
me : no la , yixiang want to come ma , so must see what time you go out then he come la !
mum : why lehs ?! he coming then you want to chase me out of the house la ?!!
then i was like , walao ! i didnt even have this meaning lorhs , i just ask her the time ma , then she want to be so sensitive ! i also dont know the reason why she hate him so much ! they both like that makes me feel so tired and uncomfortable lorhs , cause i must give in BABY but must listen to MUM ! haiz ~
i sick still need to trouble this kind of lame things ! cant anyone just concern me ? i really very very tired lorhs ~
worry about prelims and o's , art , family problems and still must add on to relationship problems !
every people's heart cant put too much things , will overload ! everyone tolerance have limits ! hope you people can be more understanding ! i already sick of repeating the same problems and questions ~ so hope everyone can slightly think of my feelings , or else , i really cant take it and may hope to commit suicide to end everything better . like that anything have no worries already ! :x
BABY ,
i know you should be upset after reading the letter that i give you , but i hope the answer you decide is the one that i'm thinking now ! did you know that , when i was down in the afternoon , the first person who came to my mind is you ! i really need your shoulder to lean on , and i'm really touched when you make an effort to come to find me no matter how late ~ just like this evening , my mum is at home , you patiently at my house downstairs and wait for my mum to go off ..
although is abit dumb , but it prove that you really love me alot ! willing to do anything just because want to make me happy :)
this is the point that i more and more love you , because i have feel your love that you giving ~ LOVE IS BLIND and i know . i can see that you have give in alot and you even quit smoking just to respect me ~
all you've done is really have melts my heart and i already decided not to leave you ~
i dont want to go back to the past and hurt myself again ! i want to be back my real self ! thanks for bringing me out of the PHOBIA and EMO world ~
although this habit is hard to change , i'll try my best to change ! just like you ~
no matter what , no matter where , no matter how and no matter why ,
our heart link as one and our love is eternity ~
i believe you is my last and can bring me happiness ! i'll wait for you after your NS and i'll not like past few weeks , always ignore you when i was down or emo ! i'll share all my feelings to you !
now is 1.20am , 6 JUNE 2008 !
and is 14 days to 2nd month ~
iloveu baby ! muacksmuacks !
